Nightmares (ReRelease #1)

Tears on the hillside, please don’t take me this way

I want to stay and become somebody, I want to prove you all wrong

And I can see the city at night from my bedroom window

Gashes from lashing on my legs

But I don’t want your tears

I just want you to know

That if meteors came falling from the sky, I’d still be there to love you

When the music stopped I’d be there to sing

I want you to listen to me

I just want you know, that I’m bigger then this

 

I hurt your child and you look down at me

But I feel like I’ve been away while you got to sit and stay

Don’t look at me, please don’t look at me that way

I’m scared of the pain and the long hard days

These black eyes and the nights when I didn’t know if I’d stay alive

My mother sleep, apologies on his bloodied fists

I don’t want your tears and I don’t need your love

I just want you to know

That when night dawned on my side I needed someone to care

I needed something to be there

Don’t you dare look at me that way

Don’t talk about me that way, don’t you dare

Because I’ve gone through the fucking shit, while you got to float away

I needed a home, while you needed your day

 

And I’ve fought for my life every single night

I did everything to keep breathing, I had to keep my eyes open to keep seeing

And I know that I’ve been gone while you got to sit and stay

I’ve been wrong, and that’s all you say

I need someone to love me, and need to make sense of these nightmares

This is a righteous plea, because fear has a hold on me

I’ve apologized a million times through so many rhymes, but you’ve read but one

Please don’t take me this way, I can’t take seeing the past

I don’t have time for arguments and back talk, I want something to happen

And I’ll say it one more time, I don’t need your love, I don’t need your hugs

I just want you to know
I’ve been through the night times, I’ve been through the halls

I was being hurt, but you didn’t hear my call

So don’t you dare look at me that way, don’t you dare have a word to say

This is my time, this is for me

Some nights when I’d rather flee, then have nightmares I can’t make sense of

Some nights I’d do anything to relive what I had to see

Daddys Gone

Oh oh, Dad ya were my hero, opposite of the common zero

Now i See the four headed monster of doom, my perspective on life is in full zoom

Daddy, We could’ve had it all

Now you make my life fuckin impossible

I write this with tears and syllables

’cause i will be the only one, standin as the lonely son

Realizing that my perfect life is done

Daddy’s Gone, Daddy’s Gone

I wanna tear apart your memories

Blatant obscenities, my trauma took furious entities

I want you to now, that healing is so slow

I have to mend the wounds of every blow

I was that lonely boy, not sure what to say

Oblivion or a shattered day, my dad’s memories began to decay

Dad, we could have had it all

Instead my only hope that night was a hospital

I will be the only one crying in midnight park

I need a father to find me in the dark

Oh Dad, Fear is my best friend, it took your place  in my life till the end

Suicide was your message to send

I love you to much for your life to end

This life of mine isnt right, i scream and beg for reality to begin

Empowerment, means finding love withen