Life Will Go on Without Her

I need your love to find me
I’ve been searching through books to try and find some truth
to how I used to see you

The way you twirled around
Could I stay by your side and guarantee our safety

I wonder if I died tonight If I’d think that I made the right choice
Or if I’d crumble underneath the sound of your voice
The smell of your neck warms me with a tear in my eye

All the hope in my heart escapes as I remember hometown sins

But if you took my hand tonight maybe god would hear me

This is the first time I’ve ever been at your door, but willyou let me in

I need your love to find me
As I back into the wall there is a fear of flight
I cry as they reject me
I stand as they applaud
If I could change all the things that happened to me in the past,
I’d forgive my friendly sins because they are here to stay

I want to live till a day where there is more at play
I need your love and I need it tonight


I burn trash from the sky and soak loneliness in dye

Daydreaming about places neon in shine
I’ve loved the fear in approaching you
I love the conclusion in all your signs


I need you to love me tonight, is that something you can do?
I’d stop time for you and only you


I wish i could see you in my reflection, or maybe even in sight

Maybe my desires, are ones that are worth a fight

But i count on love to hold me up

When the truth just has to be enough

I have a feeling that if you took my hand maybe we could go flying

Flying high into the night

Brings a tear to a young man’s eye

That what i want will never be right


Love in Poetry Part 2

Will you be a midnight fling in the studio by the sea, or will you be my true love to be
Because I’ve never seen the girl of my dreams
I’ve never felt true love so my heart is young and immature
And I’m waiting to truly feel alive
By the waves of the universe
Watching a thousands suns set with you at night
Saying hello to the future

Am I a brute, or a king?
Because the way you look then is cute, you could be my queen
All these words together to way out my odds

Is my craft what keeps me the way I am?
Or will I sail in the sea to see what I was created to see
Lies spread like wildfires in my mind

I yearn to study your rhythm 

That’s our Love Baby

And with you I want to fall, beyond the horizons

            With our eyesight still in tact

And if they ever make you cry, I will whisk the dears away

Sleeping on the clouds but I’m never not with you

And when our lips lock it’s heaven

Nothing becomes between, not even the feather from the birth of space

That day when the sky separated for you and me,

I saw you standing there

With smile, oh I love you dear

I’ve lost some friends, I had my friends when we were boys and girls

But you were the heart that pumped when mine couldn’t

Your beautiful like when the skies transcend the moon

When you turn around to me, I couldn’t ever be alone, not within heart

We can the shred of truelove, that will grow so old and love so long

            And when you first came into my life, I was not the same man the next night

            When you held me deeply, I could’ve harmonized through flight

            The syllables I sung to you, came from a touch or a kiss

And if I have to fight, I will not until the night is your victory

If I ever have to swim I’ll dive far deep

The idle psalms of sunrise, lies against my cheek

In Love, if I ever did fall any deeper, I just wouldn’t even land

I’d trade one life time to hold my hand with you

Is it true, the first day we kissed, you laughed and turned the lights off and made a wish

Is it true, that when I held in the sand, I granted your wish

If we fell through the depths of hell I would hold you dear

If night tries to keep you, I’ll make it the light day

And when you held me so close while there pattered soft drops of rain

When you rubbed away my fears and cured my little pain


Was it real?

And our first night, was all that a dream, or was it just you and me

So when the nights were burning sincere, we had no fear

We had no care, I was your prince, you were my love

So don’t ever get close from me


Sometimes I walk with you and I hold your hand, I realize, that when we die, we will always be together

When your skins pressed against mine, I swim in a lake of euphoria

When we would disagree, I couldn’t get my mind of you, and you couldn’t stop thinking me

One day when we stand at the top of the world, I’ll kiss you there and say





Ode to my Grandma



Ode to my Grandma (Round 2)


Grandma, I miss the times when you’d kiss my cheek and we’d talk

About all my plans which at the time I wrote in chalk, not permanent

But now I wish I could tell you these ideas have fermented in my head and now I’m ready to live by the lyrical words and write free verse like some shit you’ve never ever heard

Because you are a Lion God, with so much passion, and I remember when you threw your cane at those kids messing with your trash and, when you told me to never give up

And sometimes I might hiccup like a pause in the beat, but I’ll claim my throne on any seat, and never concede to defeat

I’m a parasite in a system, a pistol among sharpshooters, a crazy bastard who moonlights as a master of the words

I have my own bible, notes I took from my grandma

Words she muttered between the drag of a cigarette, knife on the wall and fist like a brick, you make the call?
You take the risk, you step to her and be slapped mostly by wisdom and pep

Down to fight even with a replaced hip

She taught me…

Life is a fatal sickness, perpendicular to strep and we all have to found something to represent before we get lost in retrospect

Taking care of an entire family to ride the waves of a tsunami, traveled the world while I watched toonami

She was a boss of all bosses, live and prosper at all costs

Never count your losses, and the only time to worry

Is if the pain you feel is more than the love you’ve received

Time is a spec compared to a giant chess bored where I used to make my move, high above the trees in your backyard grandma

We’d throw rocks off the porch

Smoke a cigarette during the drama as she would count the commas, the wisdom was unreal

Something a thirteen year old boy could love and feel

And when my dad wasn’t there, my grandma was
For that there will always be lots of love

All the live I ever received paled in the comparison of my grandma and I

And as the rest of my cousins decided to hate, my grandma taught me everything and helped me decide my fate

I can read her my book, now’s not to late

Sometimes I feel like sedating myself to crawl away from life’s pain but then I remember my grandma

He didn’t stand, she ran toward the problems facing all around her land

She is so tough I like to call her my main man, but she might sock me so I stick to best friend

My favorite person from now to the end



If She Ever Came Back to Me…

And if she ever came back to me, the moon would be so bright that I could live through the nights

The light, would guide me on an open path, and each challenge wouldn’t need my fucking wrath

I’d feel, all the emotions again that used to crawl through my skin

My fears, nothing but idol signs and I could spend my time writing some rhymes

And Life, wouldn’t be so hard I could worry about going instead of keeping my mind on when I’d depart
The start, would be so far from the end, and the pain would break not just bend

And if she ever came back to me through the fog I could see, so far into a hopeless fight, so many bright lights

The love, not a word I’m supposed to say but these poems are made in an honest way

The kiss, is better than anything I think after I could even sing
Her eyes, are so beautiful and there’s nothing more to say

Her face, is so fucking cute, when I look at it I go simply mute

The end, wouldn’t begin and I’d have time to wash away every sin


And if she came back to me I’d finally feel free, from the shackles that hold me back from glee

The agony, of being so far away, I think about her every second of every day

The tears, they stroll down so long, she told me not to love her so I feel I’m doing something wrong

The songs, so many that I wrote, they weigh so heavy they could sink my boat

The wish, is that maybe one day something could change and maybe our lives we could rearrange

But if she came back, I’d be the happiest, but as long as she is happy I’ll stay where I stand




I really can’t deny how beautiful you are, but do you see it

Do you believe that someone like me could be with someone like you

Do you believe that I could make your sky blue, or I could hold you tight

I could fight for you, make your days right

Glide across the world like a shooting star, hold you so close and whisper a poem into your ear

Do you believe me that I’m sincere, and that you would be the dearest thing in my life

Do you believe it?

I’m a man of simple pleasures, but you’re amazing

If you came toward me I’d have to wonder if I could take it

Do you believe this poem, because I doubt I could fake it

Do you believe that these words are real?
Do you believe that I could be your place to hide before the storm begins?

That you could dance and mesmerize me, almost like every time I looked into your eyes

Would you understand if I told you I’d like to be with you, or would you not feel the same way

If I made a promise, with a tear in my eye, all the hope In my heart and belief in my mind

If you held me and I held you I think we’d be alright


I’ll bang on your door until you let me in because sometimes I might need a place to hide

I know in my mind that I might be the best thing for you, but I know you’d be the best for me

You are the most beautiful girl that I’ve ever seen, and if I ever kissed you it would be a dream come true

And do you believe me if the skies were dark I’d do everything to turn them blue

Do you believe that if I’d wipe away every tear, and prepare you for every fear

Would it surprise you if I said that I’ve been waiting for you for so many years

That every message I sent was in preparation for you
So Take my hand tonight because I know we’d be alright girl

Nicole, what a name for such a perfect woman

Nicole, if I made a promise with a tear in my eye and hope in my heart would you believe me?
If judgment day came around at least I’d know that I’d die happy, and when I found a place to hide at least I’d be with you

Poem for a Girl

When I was losing stars in the night I wished the sky to be blue




As I drowned in all this holy water, all I could think of was you


This is the beginning; I overcame a time when glimpses of sun were to few


And I believe in you and everything because you are so true




As a new rose grows, I want to take your hand, run and not even stop for the sun


Our hearts pacing,


Because I want life to not matter at all, the seconds and minutes pass one by one


You’re blinding, that I want to fast forward to new times and then go back and live in rewind


Because you are one of a kind


Auttimn, I was waiting for the clouds to pass over, but now I’m going to read this poem aloud


Something so blue, and now all that’s on my mind is you


I stare into your eyes to the sound of a melody, because your grace is the symphony


To say what exactly that it meant to me, to pass along transcending dimensions to create a better entity


The seasons were there to take care, and then summer past and autumn came to appear




Look in the mirror and you’re a dazzling dancer in the question of life, in which you are the answer


To a life worth living, I’ve been parading around the old past looking for pain to be forgiven


A life worth living




I can’t wait until tomorrow to give her my heart with giving


You were the stars from the start, and just like trouble times each night the sun departs


And the night tends but the day restarts, and you are


Imagination compared to sorrow, it’s the fact that if I’ll go slow so WE CAN BE TOMORROW




It’s the clouds they hold you my dear, so if I should wipe a tear or listen to you as you conquer each fear, I want you to know I sign all my poems sincere


I was caught in the sea battling me; doorway to the future is entry I can’t see


I kept fishing under the moon, they told me to be patient and that my catch wouldn’t come so soon


Turns out, it went past June, and I would walk around Sovereign park, when the light shined upon couples and gloom complimented the dark


I knew nothing about girls, until I met this pearl


In one day I stared and my life became a swirl


Next week I had to be dreaming, but this scene and this conflict I was fleeing


I realized it was the most beautiful girl in my world that I was seeing


In her beauty I was believing, and as I stared with wondrous eyes


My chest began to curl because,


I’m so fond of this beautiful girl


For Auttimn :))

For my Grandmother <3

My Grandma taught me everything i know, and one of the things she repeated often was, “Dont Take No shit from nobody.”


Painted a lullaby and the child inside wanted to cry, physical description to show how I’ll die, I’ll replace every swear with a bleep, clean up my act and pledge in some prayers that my soul is for god to keep, fake like I’m indebted to religion, indentured to some sort of spiritual beginning. Buts its my Grandma who I’m owing, Edwina the Queen, I’m not going to fake like I have a hard gangster lean, but my family started the new haven scene, it was 1950s, travel back in time to get the definition of mean


A Clip of even numbers in my umbrella, alphabet cars painted blue, red, and vanilla, switched from acting hard to a pink hat like DJ Yella, and now I have a hell of a smell, for the misery, and the pain, I threw myself into rehabilitation with nothing to lose and  nothing to gain. I held pictures of my grandma to keep from going completely insane, shot caller in a mental institution sporting a benzodiazepine gleam from a whole different lane, I conquered my demons but I made it look plain.


That place erased all restrictions and moral, Desensitized to the violence but I can’t write raps about slinging Cristal , I can only embrace my Grandparents as my two best pals, the hate almost derailed my voyage home and I fucked up the tall roadblocks to the height of a gnome. I think about days sitting in room with blood dripping, I was crying all alone. If you had my genetics or looked through my eyes, why would you worry about dying when you roll the dice, Grandson of a Queen so why would I never not rise, blessed to be able to observe the stars, I can upgrade my home and crash a fast car. Through all my success my Gran will never go too far from my heart, sprinkle cigarette ashes on the daily depart




And with all this debauchery, some of us chose to go on and on about pubescent philosophy


And this is the plight of the living dead, verbatim is a death sentence so never quote what I said, now I’m reminiscing about the days when I didn’t have two thousand fans and the potential to publish a revolution right at my hands. Gil Scott Heron would be proud, passed down the asterisk and the slant, Black Panthers are gone but now I’m the man


Kool G Rap was on the edge of sanity, and now I sit back judging this calamity, the town is overflowing with drugs and prostitution to bring the grit to reality, calling out losers is just a formality, to win is like spewing debonair profanity and I’m crushing a hyped house of shit and I’m not talking about Amity, disturbing the peace to the metal of the wood and drawers that are shitty, I was bred in the underbelly of a ugly city, I’ve got the lock on the these other skinny cats, can’t touch me or the way I’m shitting facts


So fuck copyright, Fuck Rights and Motherfuck the peace, I’m the man behind the book taking a stance. My message contradicts my sickness, decided the winner early to add some speed and art to my hit list, who rhymes like this spitting in tongues with such quickness, I’ll bomb the world with mediocre physical fitness, I got this world on Lockdown and I see the horizon with my grandma as my witness. There were three sides to the story so when I finished my 180 degree spin, I contemplated solving the triangular equation before I’d begin, It is my pain that suggests suicide before  I win. I always worked to keep my mind, but god decided to not include me in the general population of mankind.


I got my butter from Calcutta without a pot to piss, can’t see me in a decade with a shiny gold wrist then I’ll help you see the future with an optometrist. Spat lines of ill shit with a major lisp, economist had me in the front sea while I sat back with a morphine drip, then I flipped and moderately constricted the script, I wrote this little book and promised my grandma I’d never ever slip, having my family in my heart with keep me from injury during my ego trip.


Maniacal motherfucker for goodness sake, I don’t wake and bake, and I hate and fake, like I don’t wake and pop, even with the world spinning around me I’ll never stop.




You can’t put a number next to my name, take a life from my surplus because I live life like a game, KKK stopped us in our car and I swear we never changed lanes, my grandma passed down BDI, Black Determined and Insane, I’m an abomination and a lion so ill slap you even if you think it’ll be easy for me to be tamed. Motherfuckers live in fairytales, but painkillers are my Aladdin, and I’m a variation you wish you’d never see, I’m not the warm hearted boy I was raised to beImage

Love and Other Stuff

The tide will always reach the shore, you are the sea within a sea

Perfect ten times four, the inspiration of poems and folklore

I love you, so much for self reservations

It eats your heart to quickly, hold me close for sedation

I consumed more then I could chew

Roses may be red, violets might be blue but no flower will ever…ever…be as beautiful as you

We can float down this stream past the kings and queens, and you might be the most beautiful princess I ever did see

I love when you stare at me

My heart is a political prisoner of your social tyranny

The waves are calm, and so are your eyes

I want to hold on close, and reinforce all ties

I want to make this happen, so let’s do it right


You are a sea within a sea, the epitome of belief laced with serendipity

I hold you close; I can hear your heart speak to me

I will hold on through trial, tribulation, never defeat

I hide beneath the shadow watching the storm

The streets of dreams and diamonds is our destination, journey through the light just to meet your eyes

The scrambling sky far beyond the limits of a night

And yet I fight,

For your love and beauty

The shining glare of the sun, with you I have no fear

I constructed an element my dear

The sea within the girl, the beauty within the pearl you swirl and it seperates the clouds

I have this poem for the sky to read aloud

A blue sky that delays the vicious lie that nobody is perfect

I’m sure you are the perfect example, the perfect sample

The Perfect girl, the rose in the night

I was crawling on all fours with metaphors until I found your definition

We marched through the water, our hearts beating together

Lets Listen?

Words of Wisdom replaced by thoughts of kissing, peace is a goal but my heart is floating through the waves of the title