My Return

Oh there’s nowhere left to go
Nothing to see
Could you believe now that I could touch the sky
As tears flow down my cheeks, I sit and cry
With nothing left to me
What can I tell her now?
She is so beautiful and upset
How can I be there?
Floating in the distance
My heart is broken in two
And I don’t know what to do

 

Oh there’s nowhere

Nowhere to go
Nothing to see
I can’t stop, I’ve got to believe
This is the life that I wanted but how can he go
Nowhere to go

This is weakest flower blossoming
The smallest star brightening the entire sky

Oh there’s nowhere left to go
My sickly return
Limping along the corridor
The night birds Singing when the moonlight is gone
See you walking along the stars
And now as I fall as far as I can go
I just want you to know

That there is nowhere to go
And I’m stuck clinging to your soul
Oh please come back and show me the way

Whispering

Poor boys, with rich girls 
Long nights with lonely ends 
Texts and sex in college dorms  
Does anybody hear me? 
Does anybody care?

Biting nails, picking skin 
Waiting for the angst to end 
I’m loving getting old, getting off, holding out for something new 

Streetlights and Dark corners
Red Flags and Lost Lives
Bad sex and dusting off souvenirs looking for pills 
Cheap thrills get you by paying bills 
Dead dreams and long calls 
Banging my head on the walls to try and get a reaction 
May god show himself? 

Cults and young adults
Teenage mendacity, long lives with cheap highs 
Lies about how you die 
I want to grow old and fall in love with you 
Its been real nice, but i must go 
I can’t hold out any longer

Does anybody really care?
If i fell to the ground 
Below the surface is a better prophecy and in the light
Are all my faults 
In my mind are heinous thoughts of darkness and the end of what i love 
Life 

Hold her Hand

Im nothing next to his diamonds
Wasn’t good enough
I’m to fearful to ever reach forward again
Just to hold your hand
After our love ends the bitterness begins
You hate me because i am to blame
I envy because this life for you is just a game
I would have never said those three words to you
But back when i was drowning in high tide i was clueless
Lost in sea
Because you and me were never meant to be

Take a Minute, The Poem

The solemn aggression and pain of lonely nights, the darkness and disputes shine upon city lights

 

I sway in the wind as the feeling of doom creeps in despite all the advantages of a perpetuating preconceived desires and barren roads that seem to never end

 

They say I’m kidding but it’s a fact, it’s a stereotype of the prejudice that’s built to react

 

My past influences the way I act

 

The messages from society shield wondrous dreams, and I’m beginning to waste away it seems, and if you don’t help me now ill fade away in the misery Day in Day out

 

 

 

Misery finds a home it always does, a problem evolves from me to us, and if looks could kill I’d bury your trust

 

I’d always had my heart in hand, I always said if the tide rose I’d stand, maybe I’m just not god’s man

 

As times passes so quick, in motion my life makes me sick, and you remind me of all the things that were ever said by knowing me when my face was plastered red

 

Controlling each impulse and feeling with empty meds, and the tribulation of being hungry and having yet to be fed no, because sometimes I feel like I’m going to just drop dead

 

It’s the nights I loathe and the daylight I dread, I’m wasting away in bed, the feeling is beginning to spread and I’m fading, I’m fading Day In, Day Out, Day In, Day Out

 

 

 

Smash the window resulting in bloody knees, disgusting fiends waiting for the itch to cease

 

The moments of day when I struggle to breath, delaying celebrations because I’m trying to prove to myself that I still even believe

 

And, I remember so clearly the days I slit my wrist, I remember so clearly all the risks I took to exist

 

To abort an idea and watch it wheeze, set fire to the world, hopes and bars

 

My mind is becoming an exhibition that transcends dimensions for tradition, just so I can have faster cars, sometimes I think there is a moon man and I’m living on mars

 

And no I’m not gonna shot for the stars again, fall from the sky and die breathing in air I used to rely in

 

Day in, Day Out, the reality never speaks it shouts, Day in, Day Out, Day In Out, but I don’t want to fade away, I don’t want to leave this world today

 

There is a memory so stand still, Take a Minute prior to pulling the trigger because now I’ve got a view to a kill

 

I was promised good things that end, and I always knew they would

 

I tried to conquer this world, and even as I falter I know I still could

 

So many perfect shapes, how do I compete? Truth is what you perceive but depending on how much you believe will raise the limits on all that you receive.

 

I’m looking at the quiet sky again, and I’m looking at a close up of the past on New Year’s Eve, the silence holds aggression that builds belief, like blasphemy and grace creating a new me yeah

 

Day creeps and night tends, I’ve got the devil inside yet I ascend, and I blend animosity like it’s a trend, nutrition for a theory fueling hypocrisy, with hate so far the eye can’t see

 

And it’s the times of the night that remind, that if it wasn’t for the hate I couldn’t be me, the evil entity

 

 

 

Have you been able to pontificate about dark days and bright nights that we’ve got, making magic out of the illusions of the people in which we are not

 

I can’t think straight, the pain must stop, because if I stay to off balance I’ll drop These are the days when a father is needed by his son

 

I need someone to pick up the pieces instead of turning around to run, I need a clearer vision of the sun, because some days I feel like a big mistake, and then others like the chosen one, these are the days when I’m reminded how I was born by the knife and will live by a gun

 

This teenage minacity is less innocent then a stroll on the city, or the brutality of the town without pity, revenge and repent, tragedy of the years of doves and mud, and the present terror of the past blood

 

Stuck in my mind, its Day in Day out, stuck in design, the fear, the terror I can’t speak much clearer

 

Because the chills become sincerer, its Day in Day Out, the place more lights to shine on my drought

 

I don’t want to drown or burn away, I want to rise above and howl what I’ve got to say, without delay I want all of hell to pay before I fade away. It’s the glimpse of hope, misery of gleams, Day In Day Out its not what it seems

 

 

 

Told from the Point of view of Draco Ragonov

 

 

My Hope

Hope is in the almighty form of just staying alive, keeping my eyes open

Because when they drift close I swear I’m going to panic, I’ll know that the sickness found me

Sweat dropping down my forehead, thinking about when I’ll be dead

Before then hope is a stream full of blood, reality mixed with dreams flowing through the earth

I’ll be a drop of water that flows down stream

I’ll be there between rocks and passing fish toward the big city

Holding my breath, under the water?                      
Holding onto memories close to my chest, heading toward the big city

A town without pity, heading for big things

Maybe a couple of awards, a few rings for my mother

If it wasn’t for her I wouldn’t have been born, no other

And then maybe I can stand atop a mountain and look down at a city I have conquered

I might be covered in blood, but I had to pass through the jungle before climbing up the peak

Its love that I seek, but I might be just a bit to meek

As I float down that stream, maybe holding my love

I’ll be heading towards the waterfall clutching her with all my heart

My hope is that through all those years, I’ll have someone who can hold my hand that long

Someone who won’t just wanted float down stream with me, but who will want to fall down the waterfall

You Should be Afraid

You should be afraid, of all the pain and the fear that is there to see for the sane 
All the games and raves, when you lay on the pavement 
Because all the lies and end of the lives
All the broken ties and long loud cries
Nights in my mind crumble 
Chaos inside turns into the slightest little rumble

You should be afraid, you should look farther then the horizon
Worry about the lightning 
Think about the thunder, you’d better pray there is a god 
You should read the scriptures if you speak his name 
You should be a player if you want to be in the game 
I’m rhyming i’m bumping the grime and, 
Bring me the horizon, give me some make up and some devilish lines
No keep it to the natural medicines, they said three jumped me but there could have been ten of them 
My mind, is so dangerous it towers high like a tenements
Dirty crevices and dark little denizens 
Truthful glares perpendicular to the gleaming benz 
Wash away my love and burn me for my sins 
And you shouldn’t be afraid 

General Divide

Where is my Life? Where is the Light? It’s the acts of children that deride the mind

Every loss and mistake I try to retrace is perpetuated by the lack of design

I replaced all the glass when I realized hope had returned in rivalry Nothing is so precious or vulgar, as my innocence every loss and mistake, I try to retrace has brought me back to the mirror Where is the light? I want to see clearer tonight where is the Light? It’s the pressure of a lifetime that allows me to sleep I regret, all the dissidence that clouds my regrets It’s the act of violence that we refuse to realize Teenage Minacity swarmed in complicity Life hangs in the balance, and I’m searching in silence My response is in violence

The pain is far too intimate, and its act of children that helps us be careless alone

I accepted all the failures as the kings confessed destroying my kingdom and leaving me in absence It’s the silence of children that choose what is right It’s a shadow of light, a piece of plight that is passion for our failures now

God discuss your faith, we are not here for life but to erase This is a chase for the lack of sympathy The emotions that are missing from my listing, I set fire to empathy And watch my friends burn under the light Every loss and mistake is clouded by my judgment Where is the Light? It’s the loss of childhood that leaves us alone The Light? It’s the forgotten children that poise me for my disaster Can you find my Life? I am so Alone

I am set in strife, the friction is my detention

My dissension is to soon, I know I’m going to die

Where is the light? I miss the jubilant sights

It’s the acts of children that conflict our lives

 

Desire

 

The hairs on my arms stand up as I see I become so scared
The screech of lost moments ringing through the air

But I if I were to stay deaf as tidal wave of the universe approaches

Then it will be my down
We will croach in fear, and hopefully remember all that is dear
With pop songs in the back of ours minds

And rock n roll during a London night

We hush at the fear in the plight
We know we open up to the feelings that are undone

Broken and Blind
Crawling for desire
With pills in the pit of our stomach
Desire on our sleeves

Desire, elate my heart and take over time

The idea burning at the back of my mind like fire
Leaves me to contemplate the world as I tire