Forget the Noise

Can you Feel the Flow? The fluidity, I fear that each line has its own original identity. I used to dream of going to on a big vacation, poor so forget it, thought about horseback riding instead of the Caribbean but the closest thing I got was watching pornos with sybians. Don’t say anything, but I’m beginning to sharpen, be fearful and disheartened because my body is weak but my mind is a Spartan

Do you feel the Anger? I spoke in Tongues, First it was direct publishing, now I’m flourishing after I mugged the industry, some people question my ability after they question my history, I answer in story and in mystery, I want to show you what Glory means to me. Your dealing with a poetic virtuoso, so much rage that I spit evil, this was the moment when I didn’t feel well, this wasn’t the life that I wanted, this felt like hell.

So I dressed for war, we were urban critters that blended with the dark, no west side story, but we were sharks. Billing Issues, Funerals with discount tissues, slashed tires, murder for hire, prostitution, religious institutions, the boys communicating with their hands and the self righteous Judge presiding over the witness stand. I screamed seven letter swears because I’m a beast, ravaged my moral fiber until it was left deceased, gaunt sickly body, the world is preoccupied with who is a hottie and who is a nottie, now everyone be silent for the boy with the shottie

In The clouds, they said, “Fuck the Noise, attention is the predecessor to suspicion. Don’t Look at Us For Redemption, stare at the abyss, so close to feel the flame’s tongue kiss. Grab your paper and pen, you will need it if you want this to ever end”

My Grandma told me it was the dreams i had to chase, to drop bombs on the horizon im so eager to erase. Ten years later murder was the case.
Assimillate the vocabulary to decimate, i told her i wanted to get my cut, she said to mutilate. If this book takes over, Grandin can legislate. Never hesitate to pontificate, never humiliate just eliminate.

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Home Again

Have you been able to pontificate about the dark days and bright nights that we’ve got, making magic out of the illusions of the people in which we are not

I can’t think straight, the pain must stop, because if I stay to off balance I’ll drop These are the days when a father is needed by his son

I need someone to pick up the pieces instead of turning around to run, I need a clearer vision of the sun, because some days I feel like a big mistake, and then others like the chosen one, these are the days when I’m reminded how I was born by the knife and will live by a gun

This teenage minacity is less innocent then a stroll on the city, or the brutality of the town without pity, revenge and repent, tragedy of the years of doves and mud, and the present terror of the past blood

I don’t want to drown or burn away, I want to rise above and howl what I’ve got to say, without delay I want all of hell to pay before I fade away. It’s the glimpse of hope, as misery gleams, 

 

To Destroy An Idea

Smash the window resulting in bloody knees, fiends waiting for the itch to cease

The moments of day when I struggle to breath, delaying celebrations because I’m trying to prove to myself that I still even believe

And, I remember so clearly the days I slit my wrist, I remember so clearly all the risks I took to exist

To abort an idea and watch it wheeze, set fire to the world, hopes and bars

My mind is becoming an exhibition that transcends dimensions for tradition, just so I can have faster cars, sometimes I think there is a moon man and I’m living on mars

And no I’m not gonna shot for the stars again, fall from the sky and die breathing in air I used to rely in

There is a memory so stand still, Take a Minute prior to pulling the trigger because now I’ve got a view to a kill

I was promised good things that end, and I always knew they would

I tried to conquer this world, and even as I falter I know I still could

So many perfect shapes, how do I compete? Truth is what you perceive but depending on how much you believe will raise the limits on all that you receive.

I’m looking at the quiet sky again, and I’m looking at a close up of the past on New Year’s Eve, the silence holds aggression that builds belief, like blasphemy and grace creating a new me yeah

Day creeps and night tends, I’ve got the devil inside yet I ascend, and I blend animosity like it’s a trend, nutrition for a theory fueling hypocrisy, with hate so far the eye can’t see

And it’s the times of the night that remind, that if it wasn’t for the hate I couldn’t be me, the evil entit

 

Lonely Guitar Chords

The solemn aggression and pain of lonely nights, the darkness and disputes shine upon city lights

I sway in the wind as the feeling of doom creeps in despite all the advantages of a perpetuating preconceived desires and barren roads that seem to never end

They say I’m kidding but it’s a fact, it’s a stereotype of the prejudice that’s built to react

My past influences the way I act

The messages from society shield wondrous dreams, and I’m beginning to waste away it seems, and if you don’t help me now ill fade away in the misery Day in Day out

Misery finds a home it always does, a problem evolves from me to us, and if looks could kill I’d bury your trust

I’d always had my heart in hand, I always said if the tide rose I’d stand, maybe I’m just not god’s man

As times passes so quick, in motion my life makes me sick, and you remind me of all the things that were ever said by knowing me when my face was plastered red

Controlling each impulse and feeling with empty meds, and the tribulation of being hungry and having yet to be fed no, because sometimes I feel like I’m going to just drop dead

It’s the nights I loathe and the daylight I dread, I’m wasting away in bed, the feeling is beginning to spread and I’m fading, I’m fading Day In, Day Out, Day In, Day Out

 

Hopes, Questions and Fears

Hopes and Fears

I wander back into the universe
Scared for my future
My hands on my face
Floating above the big cities
I see the skyscrapers
As the music gets louder
I can’t even breath
I am a spectre
I am the ghost
Burning in existence
Marching through the sky
My dreams stay in the shadows

Will you lead to follow?
Will the sky open for us tonight?
Will there be light, or forever darkness?
Questions, hopes and fears
All downplayed by the thoughts that are sincere
Whether we are on top of the world
Or below the ground
We must decide what we are to do
What is our sound
The music starts to get loud
And the night sky forms within
You feel the sun on your back
Until the end
Until the End

Jealous Gun

She’s lost now on her own

I heard her calling on my telephone

My mind wanders as my soul becomes one
Plagued by the plight of the sun

I see monsters crawling, on the run
Smoke coming from my jealous gun

 

These leaves they fall

Burning in the wind, Fresh scent on the walls
He can’t hear you when you call
Don’t mask the hate within your please

Calling for help
Something to hold onto
To stand in the cold
Light this night with kerosene

 

She’s lost in the forest, she ran away
Calling out in the distance, screaming her name

Sitting with this curse as my heart and my brain become one

Plagued by the plight of the sun
I see destruction everywhere I run
Smoke coming from my jealous gun

 

You look at me with those sorrowful eyes

Underneath all the lies

I’ve told myself on lonely years

Underneath it all
That I could overcome these childlike fears

I could persevere

Don’t worry as it starts to rain

Rain gives way to a sun
So let’s dash along and pretend to have fun

 

 

Dreams

Tears on the hillside, please don’t take me this way

I want to stay and become somebody, I want to prove you all wrong

And I can see the city at night from my bedroom window

Gashes from lashing on my legs

But I don’t want your tears

I just want you to know

That if meteors came falling from the sky, I’d still be there to love you

When the music stopped I’d be there to sing

I want you to listen to me

I just want you know, that I’m bigger then this

 

I hurt your child and you look down at me

But I feel like I’ve been away while you got to sit and stay

Don’t look at me, please don’t look at me that way

I’m scared of the pain and the long hard days

These black eyes and the nights when I didn’t know if I’d stay alive

My mother sleep, apologies on his bloodied fists

I don’t want your tears and I don’t need your love

I just want you to know

That when night dawned on my side I needed someone to care

I needed something to be there

Don’t you dare look at me that way

Don’t talk about me that way, don’t you dare

Because I’ve gone through the fucking shit, while you got to float away

I needed a home, while you needed your day

 

And I’ve fought for my life every single night

I did everything to keep breathing, I had to keep my eyes open to keep seeing

And I know that I’ve been gone while you got to sit and stay

I’ve been wrong, and that’s all you say

I need someone to love me, and need to make sense of these nightmares

This is a righteous plea, because fear has a hold on me

I’ve apologized a million times through so many rhymes, but you’ve read but one

Please don’t take me this way, I can’t take seeing the past

I don’t have time for arguments and back talk, I want something to happen

And I’ll say it one more time, I don’t need your love, I don’t need your hugs

 

I just want you to know

I’ve been through the night times, I’ve been through the halls

I was being hurt, but you didn’t hear my call

So don’t you dare look at me that way, don’t you dare have a word to say

This is my time, this is for me

Some nights when I’d rather flee, then have nightmares I can’t make sense of

Some nights I’d do anything to relive what I had to see

 

 

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It’s a Shame

It’s a Shame

When you bring me back those results, I can barely breathe
Ready to be deceived, eaten up by your efforts

Break me up, break me up in hell
And you thought you knew me back when
I was a little kid

I was one of your own, and this is your win
This is your celebration so let me drag it to the ground

I would suck all the blood from each one of you
When the drop of a dime
And you thought you knew me
When I was lying there bleed
You thought your reputation could withstand
My adolescent needs

It’s a shame that it has come to this
That after all the blood, the tears and the piss

It all has come down to this
This is the end of the road
The final days of what should have been a eternity

Well you thought you knew me
When I wasn’t a savage on the loose

Now days I’m writing right next to the noose

The recluse, working on the next great American book
Working on a few clever hooks (No you don’t!)
Maybe the days will be over soon

And I can fucking calm down
As my heart pounds and my hands sweat with something to prove
You thought you knew me when I didn’t have everything to gain, and nothing to lose

Living Today

Right now I’m staring at the sky
Live another day no I haven’t died
And I didn’t lie when I said that I did cry
Tears of years, so many fears
Fuck tomorrow live today

I used to scream live fast die young
And now I’m regretting the dreams that I’ve sung
Today has just begun and I can’t sleep the nights that I’d meet

So many days on living these city streets

Listening to stories, getting some beats
Living for today, conquering the second and even that I can’t guarantee