NIGHTMARES:
Tears on the hillside, please don’t take me this way
I want to stay and become somebody, I want to prove you all wrong
And I can see the city at night from my bedroom window
Gashes from lashing on my legs
But I don’t want your tears
I just want you to know
That if meteors came falling from the sky, I’d still be there to love you
When the music stopped I’d be there to sing
I want you to listen to me
I just want you know, that I’m bigger then this
I hurt your child and you look down at me
But I feel like I’ve been away while you got to sit and stay
Don’t look at me, please don’t look at me that way
I’m scared of the pain and the long hard days
These black eyes and the nights when I didn’t know if I’d stay alive
My mother sleep, apologies on his bloodied fists
I don’t want your tears and I don’t need your love
I just want you to know
That when night dawned on my side I needed someone to care
I needed something to be there
Don’t you dare look at me that way
Don’t talk about me that way, don’t you dare
Because I’ve gone through the fucking shit, while you got to float away
I needed a home, while you needed your day
And I’ve fought for my life every single night
I did everything to keep breathing, I had to keep my eyes open to keep seeing
And I know that I’ve been gone while you got to sit and stay
I’ve been wrong, and that’s all you say
I need someone to love me, and need to make sense of these nightmares
This is a righteous plea, because fear has a hold on me
I’ve apologized a million times through so many rhymes, but you’ve read but one
Please don’t take me this way, I can’t take seeing the past
I don’t have time for arguments and back talk, I want something to happen
And I’ll say it one more time, I don’t need your love, I don’t need your hugs
I just want you to know
I’ve been through the night times, I’ve been through the halls
I was being hurt, but you didn’t hear my call
So don’t you dare look at me that way, don’t you dare have a word to say
This is my time, this is for me
Some nights when I’d rather flee, then have nightmares I can’t make sense of
Some nights I’d do anything to relive what I had to see
DREAMS:
I got up at sunrise, looking at a lonely bed thinking about the past
Been walking the streets looking for love since I was a kid
Now since I’ve been writing a book, I’ve been craving a new look
Something to burn my world or at least give me a little spark
Had trouble In high school, not to much to say
Now I’m living a different a way
Same clothes but In a different fashion
I’ve been moving around the place listening to some old time beats
I’ve got love and just a little passion
And now I need some action
I’ve been living with a broken heart, self medicating to mend the wounds
Now it’s time to go downtown
Down Terrace
Down the street looking for a little dove to turn my world around
The message couldn’t have ever been clearer, and I’m thinking about traveling
Make a name for myself
And If you don’t want to be by my side then I could find some pretty little help
I like you girl, the way you move and dance
Springsteen vibe but we’ve got some candles ablaze
The way you move, damn it’s got me In a bit of a daze
Call it a phase
But at least it’s got a name
I’ve been feeling the same way for to damn long, so it’s time to not write a wrong but make some new rights
Checking the next flights
Family disses me but they know where to bite
Friends aren’t what they used to be
Looks like I’m going in alone
Feeling inspired in the streets of this town
Aspiration to flip that frown and make something oh so real
Feels like I’ve got my own theme song, moving my ass to a new feel
Thinking about all those days when I was so scared and crying
I’d be lying if right now I didn’t say that I was feeling like that man In the mirror was someone that I could get used to
I want to see Europe, looking for new vibes
Life carved me up but the rest of me is ready to start